Musings on Automatic thoughts, cognitive imprints etc

[bast_believer]

This was part of a talk i had on irc with a Cam friend. For the Cammies on here, ponder this, and why the club sets me off. For the rest of you, ponder this is what is fucked with the world. Anyone being invalidated or lesser hurts them. Every villian out there, you create.

GrowlyBethling: you know the reason why rules and bureaucracy gets to me?
GrowlyBethling: because in my head, from very early on, 'following the rules' or 'belonging' = 'being liked/loved/important'.
GrowlyBethling: or being a PERSON.
GrowlyBethling: its very strong imprint. massively.
GrowlyBethling: and what trashes me every single time, is something happening, that 'invalidates' me as a person. It both makes me angry and hurt.
GrowlyBethling: So, rage directed outward to the world, or rage directed inward to me (aka depression).

Comments

[journiey.livejournal.com]

First Off, HI HONEY!!!!! HUGS!!

And Secondly, I Know Just What You're Saying And, Unfortunately, I Think It's That Way For Many Of Us.

[17catherines.livejournal.com]

Not immediately relevant to the content... but I'm glad to see you posting again. I'm terrible at keeping in touch, but I have been thinking about you.

Much love,

Catherine

[bitsofrose.livejournal.com]

yes but i never fit in the rules with folk well for the most part.

Heck when i first heard of poly relationsihps i thought thats an idea.

*hugses*